Confessions from Princess Raven

submitted for posting by Mistress Raven Greymyst

Aya really is a virtual community.  So much so, many of us develop feelings that cross into reality.

I find myself reflecting on my time at Aya. All the relationships I have developed.  All the fantasies I have helped fulfill.

I met this saucy shemale from England on her wedding day to another prominent Aya figurehead.  At the time, I roamed into Aya still in the avatar of a young boy. Talin didn't know me from nothing. As she was dressing for her ceremony, she invited me to attend her wedding.  I couldn't imagine a person like this - so friendly as she was - and on a wedding day of all days!  I mean anyone else could of said bugger off.  Not Talin. 

I roamed to 'Sissified' because at the time it seemed more active during the times I was able to come out.  I never felt as welcomed, or that I mattered, to the powers who ran sissified.  Not like Talin.
When a friend of mine told me about Talins RL difficulties, I remember I just wanted to be near her.  She was not online when I was able to serve but I was a busy body.  I cleaned and met new friends.  Bubbles and Alexis among a few.  Dolly and Kori always around.  I came to Aya to help... help be a character who can make a difference.  When Talin had returned I soon knew that what I did was right.  I came to a place I can call home. 

Politics aside, Talin always made us feel welcome and that we mattered.  I just want it said that she matters to me.  I think she matters to many of us.  We may not always agree.  But I would follow her anywhere.

I have deep friendships with quite a few at Aya.  I would do anything for them as well.  Kara and Stacy are just two loving contributors to Aya - I am grateful for your shoulders. 

The Little Sissy and the Beautiful Miss

by Head Governess Kara

Once upon a time, there was a little sissy who had no Miss. She was very lonely and longed for a Miss to serve and one day she set about to find one.

She walked through the woods a very long way and soon became tired and hungry. She spotted a dreary cabin and opened the door slowly and stepped inside. "Hello? Anyone here?" she whispered.

"Yes you idiot! Now close that door!" a voice answered. Sissy could see a very ugly  Miss in the dim light and closed the door straight away. She had green skin and matted  hair and a big wart on her crooked nose.

"I...I..I’m sorry Miss. You see, I have come a long way and I am tired and hungry. May  I do some chores for you to earn a meal?" Sissy said then curtsied respectfully.

"Bah! I am sure you are of no use! Look at you! You are worthless!" cackled the ugly Miss. "Now fetch me some tea!".

"Yes, Miss. Right away!" sissy curtsied and went to the stove to fetch the tea kettle. 

Clowny Sissies In Love

Today is a day of celebration at Aya. Today, i get to marry my sweet love, my clowny sister, Head Maid and all around silly sissy girl, Twinkles Greymyst. This sissy couldn't be happier! My sister brings me so much joy with just her presence. She always brings me out of the 'dumps' when i'm feeling low. She makes me smile and grin and giggle and laugh, with only a few honks of that wonderful nose of hers. i love to simply be near her, sharing sexy love whispers, discussing the latest toy releases, watching fun videos together, playing online together as a gaming team,.... even just a quiet snuggle as we watch some tv together.

Since the day i met her... Twinks has been my rock. i have leaned on her strength and sat upon her support. This clown has shown me what it means to truly 'be there' for someone. She took it upon herself to make me feel welcome in my very first days as a full time member of Aya. She decided that i needed a friend (i did), and that she was going to try and relax me until i felt like i fit in (she did). She stayed by my side over and over until the jitters of being allone in a strange place finally passed. Even now... i know i can count on her to not leave me when i need a close frined, and... i dont even have to tell her.. she just knows.

She has gotten to know me, care for me, and accept me for who i am inside. She supports me no matter how dense or worked up i become. She is soft footed around my feelings and emotions, and yet, always honest and true. i can trust her. i can trust her opinion. i know she will never be mean or hurtful. i feel very very safe with her.

She is my best friend.

So today, after many trials, after much wait.... i get to finally walk the aisle with my bride. I am overjoyed, nervous, excited, and a tiny bit scared. However, i take solace in the fact that i know... no matter what happens, no matter how things go today.... by the end, we shall be partnered. And THAT.... will take any hardship away.

My soon-to-be-wife has shown me many things, opened my eyes in various ways, and shared multiple happinesses. But today... i get to show her how deep my love for her goes. Today we are married, partnered, joined together. Today my sister is no longer my girlfriend. Today my sister becomes my wife.

XOXO Princess Nickles T. C. Greymyst <3s Princess Twinkles T. C. Greymyst XOXO

The Queen and Her Loyal Subjects

Some may know, our beloved Queen was recently away for some health issues. While we all know that this is necessary, and we all only want the best for Her Majesty.... in some small way... i know many of us were very selfishly missing Her and waiting for Her return eagerly.

She brings such joy to us all, we could hardly be blamed for wanting to be near Her again.

Once She was strong enough... the Queen was kind enough to come home once again and grace us. Some high points from Her visit...

All of us maids took great pride in being perfectly lined up for Her arrival. A formal kneeling maid is a happy maid. :)

Head Maid Stacy received the AYA Silver Medal of Service. HM Stacy is a huge role model to all of us. She is VERY dedicated to the life and times of Little England, always available for service to any Staff, and is so very helpful to all the maids. She almost never leaves the sim, and can almost always be found manning her post in the mansion, providing guidance and support to her fellow maids.

So, please if you see Stacy, congratulate her... if you are a sissy, there are few better to model yourself after. If You are Domme, i know she loves to be a good girl... give her the chance to show you.

Either way.. hehe.. come to Little England and visit us! We love to show new folks around... and if you are a bit confused, trying to find your way in this second life... let us help you... at AYA, sissies are protected, supported, loved, and cared for. Maybe you will find an Owner, maybe you will find a friend, most of us? we find a home.

Raven's Corner

Presenting her Royal Highness Talin Greymyst, Long Live The Queen!

I've been role playing for a long time in Second Life.  Always searching for the right person to collar me, make me their own. 

Something about giving oneself to another person is truly a thrill.  I've encountered many souls who endlessly press the restart button to live over and over there desire to be transformed from a bruting male to a whimpering sissy.  I've even hit that reset button myself on occasion.  As Raven I have over he last two years built quite an adventure and a family.  Just meeting many wonderful people out there in the world who willingly become a participant in what is my ever developing story.

A lot of love, a lot of tears, and a lot of sex!

AYA has been a wonderful home for me over the last several months, and I can honestly say there hasn't been a soul involved that I have not connected with in a positive way.  Well almost.  Eventually our personalities show thru and your bound to rub someone the wrong way.  At AYA I have found happiness that really has made me excited about being on Second Life.  A family, Friends, and people that enjoy the submissive and dominant lifestyle.  A lot of laughs, and some drama too.  But above all else Love.

Love that carries from the essence of Talin.  Someone I would hope everyone appreciates as much as I do.  There are many people to thank in AYA for building and maintaining a space for us to be welcome and live the fantasies we all hold dear to our hearts.

A cast of many..you all know who you are.  You have my gratitude.

Love Raven.

Sharing is Caring

A submission from own own Senior Maid Raven:

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When Nico asked me to write for the Aya Blog, I thought to myself just what could I possibly contribute that would help my sisters get a glimpse inside the mind of Sissy like me?  Then I realize aren't we all pretty much the same.  I've been addicted to dress since the young age of thirteen years old.  Almost immediately attached the tempting fate of wearing articles of girls clothes at times I was at risk of being caught.  I crossdressing/thrill seeking game where I would take girls clothing and set out to a outdoor location and change out of my male clothes and into something I borrowed from my mother, or stole from the lost and found bin at the Junior High School. 

I would wear my mothers tights and leotard under my clothes and set out from the house around 10:00 P.M. in the suburbs almost everyone was home

not many people out.  An occasional car, maybe someone taking the dog out for a walk, but almost always quiet.  I would walk a few blocks and find some bushes and remove my boy clothes, and just wear my mothers exercise outfit.  So tight against my young body already feeling my little cock get nice and hard straining against the material.  The goal was simple; get home and dont get caught.  As I would timidly dash home, hiding behind trees, and parked cars.  In my mind I was processing an excuse in my mind, what I would say to someone if they had seen me.  Each time I thought of using the story that I was playing strip poker with some friends, and the girls won.  They made me wear these home..it was my only option.  I figured hey someone might buy that story.  Problem was...the excitement was so great..I always soaked myself in cum.  That would of been hard to explain.

I have been dressing up now for 32 years, these days, I am open to a select group of family and friends.  I like to share stories and certainly love new challenges.  Seems I am more a sissy now than ever before.  Always looking for the fulfillment of that fantasy which I have alwasy dreamed of. 

More important I hope to contribute more that helps others feel more comfortable with who they are.  As hard as we try we want to believe we can be loved for who we are.  That is something possible.  So always be positive.  Until next time sissies.

This is Raven signing out.

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Thank you very much Raven. i know for myself... knowing that others have similar experiences and feeling is a HUGE help with dealing with my sissy life and cravings. 

Sharing is scary... but very welcome and appreciated. Thank you hun for giving of yourself in this way.

Anyone who would like to contribute is more than welcome, please contact either myself (nicolette Greymyst, or Bubbles Greymyst) in world. 

**kisses!**

What is AYA to me?

I've been struggling with this post for a while now. Taking a few moment tonight to review my own blog... i realize i've already addressed this. THIS is my AYA:

my Home... and Safe Place... AYA

Once upon a time i was lost.

Discouraged, alone, beaten down by the cruelty of others... i was... ready to quit being a sissy.

Then, i found Love and acceptance. Funny how what is most needed can sometimes come at the lowest point. She comforted me, nurtured me, Love me. Then She took me to Little England

Little England is a sim (or... country if you will) in the virtual world of Second Life. It is home to many cool attractions, and i will be sure to post more about them in the future. The one i want to discuss today is AYA Sissy Sanctuary. my Princess and i used to occasionally work there as a DJ / Host combo for the parties and dance events held.

There i met many more like myself... and quite a few like Her. All of the members seemed so very happy in their servitude... although.. i must admit.. it DID seem confusing at times, soo many subs, all obviously following the same rules at once.. but yet.. they all seemed so content. There were sissies and fembois, nekos and clowns, shemales and herms... and many more. There were Governesses and Mistresses, and Sirs, and Dommes of all types. It was obvious they operated under a blanket of love... it seemed right in line with the relationship Princess and i enjoyed... love between all members... an extended family in every sense... mutual respect between Top and bottom... rules and discipline, but compassion and comfort as well. my visits there were always fun... and intriguing as well

When She had to leave me.... She told me to return there. She knew i needed guidance.. and She trusted the Governess to treat me well.

THAT was the single greatest thing She ever did for me.

At AYA i have been welcomed and loved. From the beginning, even though most had no memory of my previous visits (there was a couple of months where Princess and i stopped working due to real life issues), i was accepted and nutured. Not just from my fellow maids and sisters, but also from Dommes i had never met. The warm embrace of love was able to heal my pain and comfort me when i needed it the most. I found a true family, sisters and nieces, friends and compatriots, i found my new love, and fiance' Twinkles... and of course, i found my Mommy.

The will be posts to follow regarding my AYA experiences... but now... i encourage you to visit their new blog... and perhaps.. take a chance.. and come visit us in world....  i will be glad to give a tour of the Mansion or the entire sim... me and my fellow maids are here for Y/your assistance, please don't hesitate to ask.

The original post can be found here.

AYA Sissy Sanctuary. It seems self evident. However, i have learned that it means more than just a safe haven.

It is Family.
It is Acceptance.
It is Love.
It is Respect.
It is Discipline.
It is Fun.
It is
       Home.

It is where a boy can be a sissy, and a sissy can be a nekko, and a nekko, can be a clown, and a clown can be an Angel.

It is a place where the desire to be a girl, to be feminized, to cross dress or just exist as the transgendered being you are... will be welcomed and appreciated.